In my mind thoughts are in some kind of old books and all those images you have in your head get alive by thinking about that certain idea. They jump out of those old rotten pages and you somehow lose yourself in space and time. A sudden change of thoughts destroys the whole imaginary world like a wall of glass.
And you worry about becoming " more " than you are artistically ? Your delving deeper into your understanding of " self " all the time.
I don't really get what you're trying to say here, maybe I'm a little lost in translation. Can you say the same in other words again, please?
You frequently mention how you'd like to improve your talents. Your desire and strive to gain a further understanding of yourself through your artistic representations fuels the growth of your individual talents and style.
Anyone can create a representation of an actual object. In exploring and attempting to do the same for such abstract areas as the human condition, emotions and thoughts, your personal style is developing more rapidly (IMHO).
The last night I was thinking about what I really want and how to go on. I was thinking about what I want more, either super high detailed realism works that a mass of people like, but don't mean a lot to me or low detailed pieces that may not look super cool, but have a meaning to me. I liked the second thought more than the first one. It was a very important step to realize that I prefer doing art to express my feelings rather than being popular, I think.
Agreed. Making some good sense there Q !