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3 comments by Sab3rr on Nov 25th, 2014

I'm still alive, barely.

This year flew by in the blink of an eye looking at when I last updated this little piece of internet. It has been a hectic year and toughest year at uni yet. I'm successfully carrying on to 4th year engineering studies, but the year has severely drained me physically and emotionally and I have allot of catching up to do with the rest of life.

Devoting all my attention to studies just to keep my head above water means that my creativity is at an all time low and emotionally I'm left confused and frustrated. I've discovered some depressing personal faults while being severely pressured.

Hopefully the 2 month vacation I have is enough for me to put myself back together, but I've gained allot of new perspectives on life this past year, perspectives that did change my outlook on life itself and where I might fit into it. Suffice to say, I think the cultural environment where I'm in currently at home is not for me and I feel rather dumb for only realizing it now, but I had no other perspectives until now.

I don't know what I'm gonna do about it however and there isn't much I can do at this stage. Things might become more clear after a long rest. I hope.

Some updates in my life include the end of my competitive FPS career. It all just imploded with me being to busy and the rest of the team also being to busy with real life. Plus the fact that BF4 is a piece of shit game and just wastes the competitive player's time with its nonsense. I still love my FPS, and maybe a game worth my time will pop up again. I've been getting into the combat flight sim thing abit more due to War Thunder and I'm quite enjoying it. It just takes time to get into it and getting the proper equipment to enjoy it with.

Without the competitive FPS scene, I've lost allot of focus regarding my free time. Trying to pick up new hobbies while studying is difficult and getting good in them on a standard I'm happy with is nigh impossible.

(Start meaningless ramble) Up until now I've been underestimating video games and what they do for you mentally and socially. I didn't realize how much I relied on them to expand my horizons and befriend new ppl. The problem I sit with socially is that the common man's interest out there is just too far off from my own, so there isn't much out there for me irl socially speaking, especially in the cultural box I'm stuck in here. Realizing that there isn't something socially wrong with me and rather that I'm just in the wrong place culturally was a big eye opener to me and a confidence booster. However it does kinda depress me that I've been suppressed socially so long due to my personality and situation. (/end meaningless ramble)

Here's hoping some new good quality games will bring back some focus into my free time. Looking at the online spaceship games like Elite Dangerous to be the miracle I'm waiting for. Fingers crossed.

Sab3rr out o7

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KinQQz
KinQQz Sep 8 2014, 2:24pm says:

Hallo mei suid Afrikanser frind. Hope i spelled that right. xD

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Sab3rr Creator
Sab3rr Sep 8 2014, 2:29pm replied:

Hallo! Close enough ;P
Nice to meet you KinQQz

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KinQQz
KinQQz Sep 12 2014, 3:29pm replied:

yeh lets have a good time lel.

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=СРБ=Ori`verda May 30 2014, 1:29pm says:

You monsters butchered the Dutch language.

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Sab3rr Creator
Sab3rr Jun 2 2014, 6:31am replied:

hahaha, no we improved it and simplified it to be one of the best languages to express emotions! At the cost of being a horrible technical language.

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_w_
_w_ Jun 4 2014, 7:43pm replied:

Milos is dutch

they have no right to speak they butcher their own language 24/7 ;(

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Sab3rr Creator
Sab3rr May 30 2014, 12:19pm replied:

Awe! Ja ou, ons mag dalk in die minderheid wees, maar jy kan ons nie mis kyk nie ;)

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APOTHECARY888
APOTHECARY888 May 30 2014, 12:23pm replied:

Nooit nie... Ek check altyd rond vir ons mense, maar dit is goed om te sien hier is 'n paar SA's wat dieselfde belangstellings het

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Sab3rr Creator
Sab3rr May 30 2014, 12:25pm replied:

Moddb is 'n klas website dit se ek jou! :D
Loer rond in my friend list, daar mag dalk een of twee ander boytjies van SA wees.

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APOTHECARY888
APOTHECARY888 May 30 2014, 12:31pm replied:

Dankie, sal so maak. Altyd goed om nog te kry ;)

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Also...LAZAH BEAMS!

22hours 15mins ago

Wow, I'm impressed by the combat in Elite Dangerous. The ship strengths are varied enough that you can employ some ACM tactics.

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RT @GamepIay: Old but gold! T.co

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SP FPS games today "...have a blunt almost purposeful stupidity to them, clearly meant to feed a meathead market." T.co

Nov 25 2014, 1:46pm

Elite Dangerous will have a holiday season release, yet has no way of purchasing the game as a gift. How friggen retarded is that... arg

Nov 25 2014, 1:36pm

Blog update - Not dead T.co T.co

Nov 25 2014, 10:31am

And it's good to be back home :D

Nov 24 2014, 3:33pm

Feeling like a dumb dumb after reading up on virtual surround solutions and what they can do for stereo headsets.

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Time to start recharging....

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Back to using two screen, so nice.

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