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3 comments by Sab3rr on Nov 25th, 2014

I'm still alive, barely.

This year flew by in the blink of an eye looking at when I last updated this little piece of internet. It has been a hectic year and toughest year at uni yet. I'm successfully carrying on to 4th year engineering studies, but the year has severely drained me physically and emotionally and I have allot of catching up to do with the rest of life.

Devoting all my attention to studies just to keep my head above water means that my creativity is at an all time low and emotionally I'm left confused and frustrated. I've discovered some depressing personal faults while being severely pressured.

Hopefully the 2 month vacation I have is enough for me to put myself back together, but I've gained allot of new perspectives on life this past year, perspectives that did change my outlook on life itself and where I might fit into it. Suffice to say, I think the cultural environment where I'm in currently at home is not for me and I feel rather dumb for only realizing it now, but I had no other perspectives until now.

I don't know what I'm gonna do about it however and there isn't much I can do at this stage. Things might become more clear after a long rest. I hope.

Some updates in my life include the end of my competitive FPS career. It all just imploded with me being to busy and the rest of the team also being to busy with real life. Plus the fact that BF4 is a piece of shit game and just wastes the competitive player's time with its nonsense. I still love my FPS, and maybe a game worth my time will pop up again. I've been getting into the combat flight sim thing abit more due to War Thunder and I'm quite enjoying it. It just takes time to get into it and getting the proper equipment to enjoy it with.

Without the competitive FPS scene, I've lost allot of focus regarding my free time. Trying to pick up new hobbies while studying is difficult and getting good in them on a standard I'm happy with is nigh impossible.

(Start meaningless ramble) Up until now I've been underestimating video games and what they do for you mentally and socially. I didn't realize how much I relied on them to expand my horizons and befriend new ppl. The problem I sit with socially is that the common man's interest out there is just too far off from my own, so there isn't much out there for me irl socially speaking, especially in the cultural box I'm stuck in here. Realizing that there isn't something socially wrong with me and rather that I'm just in the wrong place culturally was a big eye opener to me and a confidence booster. However it does kinda depress me that I've been suppressed socially so long due to my personality and situation. (/end meaningless ramble)

Here's hoping some new good quality games will bring back some focus into my free time. Looking at the online spaceship games like Elite Dangerous to be the miracle I'm waiting for. Fingers crossed.

Sab3rr out o7

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Sab3rr Creator
Sab3rr Feb 24 2013, 6:31am says:

Now the question is how to draw evil angels....

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Salsa_Shark
Salsa_Shark Feb 24 2013, 7:22am replied:

evil dahhh...

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=СРБ=Ori`verda
=СРБ=Ori`verda Mar 7 2013, 2:08am replied:

Easy, take an angel and make it look techno. Red and black appearance and horns/spikes help but don't forget. SWORD ARMS!!!

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Sab3rr Creator
Sab3rr Mar 7 2013, 10:33am replied:

I think it would fail to look like an angel after adding all that. lol

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Headhunter128
Headhunter128 Feb 9 2013, 5:55pm says:

Thrown in a beer for old times sake.

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Sab3rr Creator
Sab3rr Feb 12 2013, 10:40am replied:

I just noticed this convo on my page xD wth.
Do co-op when you are bored, the weapon unlocks are 100% worth it. But play it with sum1 locally, the peer-to-peer con is horrendous.

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Arcones
Arcones Feb 9 2013, 5:38pm says:

Right right, haven't forgotten about that. Anything specifically heartwarming you want me to add in for you?

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Sab3rr Creator
Sab3rr Feb 12 2013, 10:47am replied:

I just noticed this convo on my page xD wth.
Give all your stuff to HH? hah, well no album art for you mister.
HH will just blow your your valuables on faster net and beer.
Ironic that you say all this one my page <_<

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Headhunter128
Headhunter128 Feb 9 2013, 5:16pm says:

Finally some recognition for the Good Friend Support(inc),(tm).

Remember to sign the non-liability section of our partnership.

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Arcones
Arcones Feb 9 2013, 5:12pm says:

Er, well, I wasn't going to tell you yet, but.... SURPRISE! You're inheriting all of my possessions when I die!

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