Comments - lambdaguy

and also, how do i stop myself from slamming my fists into my desk?

i have also raged at cookie clicker of all things due to how slow progress can be.
i have also raged at terraria. here is one time that sticks out to me.
i was almost at my 50th cochineal beetle kill, but the next one wouldnt appear. i literally said out loud "GIMME THE ******* BEETLE! WHERE THE **** IS THIS BITCH *** BEETLE? GIMME THE BEETLE! I WANT THE BEETLE!) after many days i finally got my 50th beetle kill and got the banner.
i just want to complete i am bread.
what do i do guys?

im not sure what made me pour out this stream of rubbish.
ah well, **** it, might as well continue until this is all off my mind.

speaking of rage games,

sexy hiking.
a game made in 2002, probably would have been lost to time if not for getting over it.
now, i cant even make it past ****** level 2. it took me more than a day to figure out how to get over (Pun intended) that ************* tree.
atleast you can walk though.
when i did, i was confronted with another struggle, the wall blocking the big red *** rotting teeth tomato face. i got over it (pun intended) 2 days after giving up at that point and reached the tomato head. after hearing that loud *** voiceline i got transported to level two, and failed to get over (pun intended) the wall. thats when i quit.

when i played i am bread, (the bedroom level) i tried over and over to complete it. when i couldnt get to the ******* iron, i raged and slammed both of my fists into my desk 10 times. i was about ready to ******* smash my keyboard and my desk and scream.

i finally beat the level.
also when i beat the bathroom level, somehow i beat it on 0% edibility, something i had no idea was possibe. the devs should fix that. because it said 0 but i was still alive. i assume that it was almost at zero, somewhere around 0.5
and then i rage quit when i was in the garage, climbed out of the bin, and got hit by a flying soccer ball launching me on the ground.
so i was like **** this game and quit.
then i returned, giving up again, then again.
when i play i am bread, my relationship with the game almost never in between.
99.99% of the time its either "i ******* hate this game" or "i ******* love this game"
i first beat this game on mobile. i have no idea how i beat the game. probably because i used my fingers instead of keys.
of course, back when i was on mobile, i was a little *** 2018 ipad skeleton skinny *** 3rd grade blonde autistic adhd anxiety acid reflux Caucasian couch potato ******* kid.
today, i am autistic, adhd, anxiety, acid reflux, caucasian, chair potato, blonde, skinny *** skeleton, and im smaller than most people i have seen. and yet somehow, this past ipad ******* skeleton version of me managed to beat a game that i cant beat today, on one of my least favriote platforms.
what the ****.
the amount of simultaneous rage and trauma and happiness and relief whilst playing i am bread is unlike anything i have ever experienced in my life.

god why did i ******* say that, if someone in the half life community HAD cut content they would probably just release it already.

thats interesting. the absence of ragdoll physics suggests that they used to or were planned to have death animations. i wonder what they would of looked like.

i will just tell you.
while i was playing d1_garage_01_32_outside, (i used cheats to get weapons mind you,) i shot a child worker out of curiosity. the child worker actually had blood decals and its model turned around. when i looked at the console it said that the child worker was missing an animation called "ACT_DIESIMPLE".
and for the cremator, its missing an animation with the same name. anyone got any answers about this?

the discovery was made on the map d1_garage_01_32_outside
a map from 2002.
once again, anyone wanna hear about the discovery? i have never seen it mentioned online.

i would like to post a discovery about the hl2 beta. anyone wanna hear it?

KILL THEM ALLLL!!!!

you are overrated.

step 1: wait for police to come.
step 2: gear up.
step 3: pigs are here.
step 4: wait for place to get crowded, meanwhile chill and prepare.
step 5: go outside.
step 6: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

step one: go to uac base.
step two: find monsters
step three: show no mercy.
step four: leave.
step five: find hundreds of monsters outside.
step six: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

and what happend to further limits and the golden alpha? dermoker made some addons i wasnt able to download, the golden alpha, (i have it by the way.) and half life further limits. dermoker deleted the golden alpha and further limits. no news, nothing. i remember being pretty excited for the mod. there is a video on youtube called it has spread or something like that that is footage of a build of the mod. i also remember seeing dermokers youtube channel but im still trying to find it.
i wonder if dermoker stopped working on the mod because people were being ******** to him for being a furry, which is completely uncalled for. im tired of people making fun of others for their hobbys.

speaking of silversource, has anyone heard of a half life alpha mod called half life silversource? i was a follower of that mod and freinds with the developer. but suddently he vanished, and the mod vanished with him. you can look, i have, but no matter how hard you try you will never find any evidence that half life silversource let alone its developer mrmiester ever existed. no trace of it is left.

no trace exept a private account and a build of the mod i have.
the build is called silverfire. i need to figure out how to upload stuff. i also remember downloading a silversource map but im still trying to find it on my computer. the original name of his steam account was chillaxsnow and the new one is drpepper or something like that. i really wish i had archived the pages. i also have an image. and those things are all that remain of this mod. the only proof that it ever existed.

doom if it was actually in hell

out of gods many favriote half life mods, this is probably one of them!

dermoker, just curious, what happend to half life further limits? it looked like a really cool mod. and what about the golden alpha? im glad i downloaded it because now its deleted. so basically, what happend?

its alive! HELL YEAH!

my favriote part is when the quiver said "its quiver time" and quivered all over the place and quivered everyone. truly a masterpiece.

im glad he didint because now this is archives and its pretty interesting.

you know, i have probably talked about the half life alpha, MORE TIMES THAN I HAVE ACTUALLY PLAYED THE HALF LIFE ALPHA!

what the ****

dont listen to that ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSShole dude. your mod is great. i look forward to seeing the next release!

i know this isnt related to AZ but i want people to remember this person. (the creator of half life silversource)
mrmiester, for the time you were here you brought happiness into my boring life. thank you for making me happy and supporting me. i will miss you for as long as i live.
EDIT: i have a map and a build of half life silversource, but i need to figure out how to upload things. yes. i am dead serious.

good god, where is the eye bleach when i need it.....

dermoker, first of all, you are awesome, and people really shouldnt be mean to you, 2nd of all, this is pure gold.

mrmiester, for the time you were here you brought happiness into my boring life. thank you for making me happy and supporting me. i will miss you for as long as i live.

such an adorable specimen!