DoWPro Public Relationship manager, tooltips and translations manager, coder, icon artist, designer of Sisters of Battle army for the mod.
After some delay, I am finally being able to write on my blog (Oooh thank you Ms. Sickness, fuck you very much). Gotta say that I have not been pretty comunicative, not to mention my lack of posts or whatsoever.
But anyways!. Lets get down to business, as usual; Im trying to beat down the cold and up for the mood to grab a hot chocolate glass with some churros. And this is where I realize something.
I am getting old. Perhaps too old to think about throwing parties.
Turning my memories back to the "old days", long were gone the weekends were I could go out to have some fun with my friends (for better and for worse, let me tell you). Long ago were the days were you could just wake up from your bed like a fresh rose and say "oh lets do something new!".
And now, looking at myself now I gotta remember that I have to strive everyday on getting a minimum of cash, having to fight (rarelly, but when it happens, it happens) for the least problem found and ultimately waking myself up so early at the morning thinking that I wished to be at least 30 minutes more dreaming about things I will not get.
Eck, and thinking about it, in 13 days I will grow older. Sucks, isnt it?.
Ahh anyways...Having more thoughts about it, did anyone of you achieved any of your goals before "the time is out"?. Not in my case, gotta say. Or at least I could just wish for a better job :P
Cheers and see you next time!.
The title of this blog has been named this way because sometimes the smallest of people may have the biggest mouth, ironically. Since I have begun in all this, with modding and all that it brings, I thought that you and your time, are always responsible of what you say and what you do. Whatever it is, it will bring an impact - a reputation. That reputation always keeps high or low depending on how you project it to others (the community).
There are, however certain actions that, given by the single individual, may affect to the whole projection of the community, and thus, it will affect your doing and perhaps even your career.
Some people out there will ask you questions about how do you do, how are things out there - that is, rise interest. There are people however that...simply put, will question yourself. Maybe is it out of hatred or, for the sake of trolling, as per usual on the so called "Internet Standards".
I will be brief, but these little suggestions could be helpful for quite some who are out there doing some PR work or for those who still feel nervous whenever they engage on their own community (keep in mind however that this is from my personal opinion. It might be wrong):
1 - Be polite: The most obvious and basic of things when dealing with your community. You have to be polite, there is no need to be rude with your answers.
2 - Be straight with your answers: You are not selling something, you are not selling a product. Sometimes the modding community it is not a business, so a direct answer always comes in handy. A lie wont make you a better person. If its a "yes" then it is a yes, if its a "no", then it is a no. This is something that is simple on paper but on practice some people tend to say a "maybe" - this is the kind of answer you better do not want to use. Why?. You are leaving a much more vague response than just simply saying yes or no. You are basically confussing people with what you might do or might not do.
3 - Keep it cool: Like I have stated before, some people out there will "tickle" you for a reason or for no reason whatsoever. You have to keep it cool and, if they try to insult you (be it with presenting facts, contradicting anything you have said previously on your own statements or just trolling you out), retaliate, be it with a strong evidence or just simply blocking them out. Could it be this considered censorship?. In some ways, yes, depending on the context. But if you do not want to be a censor, you better refer to point 2.
4 - Admit your own mistakes: If you screw up, you just screw it up. There is no need to cover it up with lies. If you have said something REALLY wrong to someone (and I have seen things), the best outcome is for you to apologize, to admit it; give an apology and move on - they will understand. I was going to write on another point something important as well. Do not even think about putting words in someone elses mouth, because in the end, it will eventually come down and bite your rear - hard.
I have just cited, the four most obvious points, but I believe that the most important (for me, personally) are points 2 and 4. I would really hope if this would be helpful for someone out there, but hey, it is a broken thought. :)
Cya next month!.
So, if you have been following me recently (which I believe you didn't - hey don't feel bad with yourself!), I will drop the ball on modding, or more appropiatelly, on coding and coordinating things.
Why?. Why it had to come to this?. Well, pretty simple: I need to pursue other things, other objectives, other goals that bring me the proper satisfaction.
As you can see (or maybe noticed), I have been supporting someone elses mod. Do not take me wrong, it has been a very positive experience in many aspects. I have learned a lot related to things like code, icon integration...but most importantly, about people.
Yeah, one of the main core of these things belong to people. Because they are your audience, they bother to give any kind of feedback whatsoever and for that, I am very grateful.
But...Everything that has a start, has an end. Nothing lasts forever, and so I did not think when I started this thing.
Truth be told, this road has not been easy. It had a lot of bad stuff concerning bugs, troubleshooting, thinking on what to do, what to touch (and eventually not touching for the sake of not screwing anything, hence respect for someone's original work) and even if I have said that people were a good experience, sometimes some do not give the proper disposition be it at being too demanding or, to put it simply, throwing shit at your back for the sake of just cleaning out the competition (I gotta remember some of you that the modding thingy is not a competition, but a comunity by itself - noone is better than the other, but noone is worse than the other) or out of spite.
I believe that, regarding the mod I worked on, I fully respected the many views and ideas that his original author (Korbah) has made, regardless of if I agreeded with him or not. I simply carried on and did not make something that, perhaps, would have turned into a travesty - or something even worse.
Did I have plans for HIS mod?. Yes, I had. As a matter of fact I am not afraid of telling them. It is not a secret for instance that I wanted to include one last playable army: The Tyranids. I chose them not because I work with such mod team, but because they have many things to toy about code related, gameplay related and finally offered a different view of things.
But of course, when I wanted to work on them, I got into many, many problems. To begin with, it would not have been just a mere port of the whole army. It could have been much more than just that. Such changes implied of course, many unexpected bugs that at the end of the day, remained and are completly unfixable no matter what.
The second of my projects was to try and portray the Stronghold Missions available for all those who love the Single Player experience. This was perhaps a bit on par with the Tyranids when it comes down to codes on the change. Perhaps time and effort will wrong me, but then again I found as many unfixable things that I could even count.
There were a couple more of things (as a matter of fact, I spoke with some people about those) but I wanted only and only those two things because they were top priority on my list, but...there is always that thing that makes it nigh-impossible to touch anything.
In other words, like Korbah used to say:
"Many people who come to the mod and think they can do some big changes and call it a day will end up chewing more than they can bite. Not because of how complicated it is, but how there is little room for big changes and or additions".
And probably, he was right.
He envisioned 9 races/armies - no more, no less. He just wanted that; to make things that would make the mod worthy of being played and being studied and at the same time, being entertaining with its very own intricancy. Those who fail to see that and attempt to change things too much or just simply altering anything will end up being bitter with themselves and say "fuck you".
Despite that he dropped the ball when he released 3.59 and failed to deliver the last army and more bugfixes that were important, I had to put it up and make it happen. In other words, I had to do what I had to do - fix his mod, nothing else, and no real issue, really.
I guess...that's it. There is nothing much else I have to say on this subject aside that once I release the final version, I step out from the modding thing and pursue other goals, such as seek out the chance to get me into into the videogame industry or who knows what.
True frigging story. I have seen this a lot of times and I just came to realise that I just identify with Alex (the guy on the vid, damnit, do not misunderstand with any other individual).
Why I didnt get some vacations to enjoy myself some tim- oh wait, now I remember why.
"If it's not broken, don't fuck it up".
No, really. Whenever you are doing something - anything, and you believe that it needs to be better than it already is, do not attempt to go for it. The results may vary depending on what it is: From the most disastrous thing ever to something you did not expect it to happen.
PS: You expected me from me a long blog?. What the fuck.
Ok so I will be straightforward and get the most simple of things for you, the user to understand how I behave and how I "sometimes" answer.
1 - Are you really a cat?.
No for fucks sake. I am not a furry, I am not a cat and if you want to imagine a black leopard typing while he growls and hisses loudly then go ahead and imagin- oh wait disregard that.
2 - Why are you so lame and cruel sometimes?.
Because I enjoy it. Deal with it.
3 - Why are you giving me short to vague answers to what I am asking?.
Because A) The question has been answered ad infinitum. B) I do not have the patience nor the interest to give a proper answer. C) Because loldunno.
4 - Why are you ignoring me Hollow?. I want attention!.
Because I do not care about your shit. Deal with it.
5 - I am going to karmatroll any comments you do!. Hope you get mad!.
Go ahead, champ. Because following my motto: Hollow does not give a fuck.
6 - How can I get your attention?.
Either with catnip a good and intelligent conversation or doing your hardest to have some critical thinking.
7 - Why do you hate fun?.
Because I do. I do not like fun. I hate fun. So yeah, hate me back.
8 - Why you posted a F.A.Q for you, I hate you and I hope you get banned!.
Good. Thats the spirit. Keep it up.
9 - I am going to threaten you Hollow!.
Read question number 5.
10 - Screw you Hollow!.
Fuck you very much.
USER 1: So the other day
USER 1: I was at my gfs place
USER 2: :O you have gf?
USER 1: Of course
USER 1: All of us Russians have to grow with on gf and a AK at our arm :)
USER 2: lol
USER 1: Like I was saying
USER 1: On my gfs house
USER 1: I was watching one of those TV shows
USER 1: Showing a famous guy around here
USER 1: Who uses cats as an attraction
USER 2: lol
USER 2: i think i know where this is going lol
USER 1: And the guy is just woah fucking amazing
USER 1: Using cats like dolls
USER 1: :O
Hollow: Let me get this straight, you want me to dress me like a doll?.
USER 1: No
USER 1: But that gave me thought
USER 1: That cats are relativelly easy to manipulate
Hollow: Do you even know how cats behave?.
USER 1: Ofc
USER 1: They are generally lazy
USER 1: And for the most part they are silly
USER 1: Just like you
USER 1: :3
Hollow: Cats are amazing.
Hollow: The only problem is that you have to be really attached to them and be pretty attentive.
USER 1: Nah
USER 1: Cats are silly
USER 1: You are silly
USER 1: I win
Hollow: SAY THAT AGAIN RIGHT MEOW.
USER 1: I SAID
USER 1: I WIN
USER 1: END OF STORY
Hollow: NO, YOU DIDNT WIN. THE CHANCE THAT YOU HAVE TO BE A WINNER IS 0 TO 100 WHICH IS JUST IMPAWSSIBLE.
USER 1: NO
USER 1: And stop your puns
Hollow: YOU DONT EVEN HAVE A PURRPUSE TO BE IN HERE, BEGONE.
USER 1: Goddamnit Hollow fuck you
(USER 1 has disconnected)
USER 2: :O
USER 2: i was afk and now i return but i think you went too far hollow
Hollow: No. He will come back. He always comes back.
USER 2: how do you know?
Hollow: Because this is his Modus Operandi. Its just purrfect and convenient for him to come.
USER 2: hollow just stahp
WARNING - The following chat blog contains profanity, insults and a large number of who the hell knows what. It is recommended to read this with a smile in your face - do not, and I repeat, DO NOT take this seriously. Viewever discretion is advised.
USER 1: so here you are
Hollow: Excuse me?.
USER 1: yes
USER 1: after a long time I finally found you
USER 1: the lost son of Atlantis
USER 1: hahahaha
USER 1: fuck yeah
USER 1: \:D/
Hollow: Say what...?.
Hollow: Yo, sis, pass me over the shit you have been smoking.
USER 1: no
USER 1: I recognize you
Hollow: How can you recognize someone on the Internet without even meeting his face...?.
USER 1: I know
USER 1: I have powers from my race
USER 1: I am from the Stygian race
USER 1: long ago forgotten by the mongers and foolz
Hollow: What...?. Sorry but this is just silly.
USER 1: are you out of your mind sillie
USER 1: you must come with me to Antarctica
USER 1: and uncover the secrets of my people
USER 1: to fight off the mongers
Hollow: ...Someone help me, please.
USER 1: I will help you
USER 1: but only if you trust in me
USER 1: your mind is confussed
USER 1: corrupted by the mongers and media
USER 1: you must liberate yourself
USER 1: fuck yeahhhhh
Hollow: I wont say it again, but with "Someone help me, please", I actually meant: "Stay.The.Fuck.Away.From.Me".
USER 1: huh
USER 1: so you are rejecting me
USER 1: fine then
USER 1: you are clearly corrupted by the mongers
USER 1: dont worry I will stay away from you
USER 1: once I become one with my true body
USER 1: I will liberate you all
USER 1: and my people will forge the new world
USER 1: no more mongers no more foolz no more patriarchy
USER 1: fuck yeahhhhhh
USER 1: \:D/
Hollow: Fuck off.
USER 1: fuck you
USER 1: _|_
USER 1: hahahaha
USER 1: yeah
USER 1: the new world is coming
USER 1: wohooooooo
Hollow: ...Why are you still here?. Get. Out.
USER 1: I stay where I want you fool
USER 1: I bet you are an agent
USER 1: and you are passing this information to your superiors
USER 1: correct?
Hollow: Actually...Yes, I am agent.
Hollow: I work for my superiors.
USER 1: I know
USER 1: you are passing this information to them
USER 1: so they will find me
Hollow: Yes. They actually told me something.
USER 1: hahahaha
USER 1: what?
Hollow: FUCK OFF YOU GODDAMNED PIECE OF SHIT I DONT WANT YOUR GODDAMN SHIT I AM GONNA WRECK YOUR FUCKING SHIT YOU ARE THE FUCKING SICKEST CRAZY PERSON I TALKED.
USER 1: SCREEWWWWWWW YOUUUUUUU
USER 1: hahahahaha
USER 1: _|_
Hollow: There is actually more. I am an agent. I work for the patriarchy, the mongers, the Hollowcaust program, the Patriots, the almighty spaghetti but last but importantly...
USER 1: hahahaha
USER 1: what else?
Hollow: THE THUNDER.
USER 1: FUCK YOU
USER 1: you dont believe me
USER 1: go and fuck another girl
(USER 1 has disconnected)
From now on, I will post a series of conversations I had around in chats I frequent, Steam, etc. Showing how funny, weird or how big of a jerk anyone can be (myself included). For the sake of privacy, the nicknames of people will be completly censored.
So let us begin with the first issue of "Hollow pls".
USER 1: So like I asked
USER 1: Why do you behave like a cat?
USER 1: Like...are you a furry?
Hollow: Like a cat?. A furry?. wtf. I dont like furries, to begin with.
USER 1: I always thought
USER 1: That you behave like one
Hollow: Dude, I like cats. I LOVE cats. But that doesnt make me like I have to behave like one, or for that matter, like people who see me like that, stop it.
USER 1: Ok ok I understand
USER 1: I just wanted to know about it
USER 1: Because you know
USER 1: I have in my friendlist
USER 1: Actual furries
USER 1: And they look at the friends list over Steam and ask me
USER 1: Is that hollow guy a furry?, he looks nice
Hollow: ...What the fuck.
Hollow: Are you seriously implying something, by any chance?.
USER 1: No
USER 1: Its just
USER 1: People asking me if they could add you
Hollow: Sorry, but I just have enough people around just to add those weirdos.
USER 1: Ok
USER 1: I get it
USER 1: You dont like furries
Hollow: Thats right, now get me some catnip and tell your sister to come. I want to "cuddle".
USER 1: Hollow pls