Well, this my lil spot on moddb where I think relativly no one comes to.
I just need to get some stuff off my chest. Basically and I wont go into names. Someone thinks I talked bad about this individual behind his back, it really bugs me because all my life i'm trying to be respectfull and have integrity. I care for others, and I respect them. I hardly choose sides and when I do, it's because I think it's just. but even then I try to stay open minded, because I like to think for myself and have my own thoughts. I'll never go about intentionally bringing others down because to me there is no point in doing that. There are somany arguments, fights and conflicts in this world which to me serve no point in anyway, so the least I want is to add to that. But for some reason it happened and there now is someone who thinks I'm like that. Man all I want in life is to be with my gf, which I cant right now. That's what my greatest hope and wish is. I don't want to be in fights wih other people I just want to make a game, and in between manage to be with my loved one. I hope that if the persons in question is reading this, he maybe understand that I am sorry that you now think I said certain things which I haven't. I thought he knew I wasn;t that kind of person but I don;t know now. I don't have a defence on this subject since my integrity towards him has been damaged in a way that's out of my control I honestly have no idea how to set things right. I hate this situaton because I just want to be the best I can ... Sometimes I just don't know what to do, when you try to be the best you can, it's obviously not enough i gues. well anyway, my evening turned into crap because of this and i feel really bad. gawd why do we all have to fight somuch, I don't want to feel like this but i cant help it. I'm gonna be by myself for now I just don't feel productive atm, my thoughts are all over the place. anyway Joure signing out. Peace.
I just need to get some stuff off my chest. Basically and I wont go into names. Someone thinks I talked bad about this individual behind his back, it really bugs me because all my life i'm trying to be respectfull and have integrity. I care for others, and I respect them. I hardly choose sides and when I do, it's because I think it's just. but even then I try to stay open minded, because I like to think for myself and have my own thoughts. I'll never go about intentionally bringing others down because to me there is no point in doing that. There are somany arguments, fights and conflicts in this world which to me serve no point in anyway, so the least I want is to add to that. But for some reason it happened and there now is someone who thinks I'm like that. Man all I want in life is to be with my gf, which I cant right now. That's what my greatest hope and wish is. I don't want to be in fights wih other people I just want to make a game, and in between manage to be with my loved one. I hope that if the persons in question is reading this, he maybe understand that I am sorry that you now think I said certain things which I haven't. I thought he knew I wasn;t that kind of person but I don;t know now. I don't have a defence on this subject since my integrity towards him has been damaged in a way that's out of my control I honestly have no idea how to set things right. I hate this situaton because I just want to be the best I can ... Sometimes I just don't know what to do, when you try to be the best you can, it's obviously not enough i gues. well anyway, my evening turned into crap because of this and i feel really bad. gawd why do we all have to fight somuch, I don't want to feel like this but i cant help it. I'm gonna be by myself for now I just don't feel productive atm, my thoughts are all over the place. anyway Joure signing out. Peace.
