Hey everybody,
Just wanted to talk about why I haven't been active, why a Race-X update isn't coming anytime soon and my mental health.
On August 17th at 8:00 pm 2019 I tripped up and ran into a glass window. I cut both my wrists in the process. My left wrist was cut in a way that didn't damage my arteries and was kinda like a slice of glass rather than a straight cut but my right wrist wasn't as lucky. I cut my tendon and most of my nerves. I really couldn't do anything and that left me very depressed.
The whole thing was just extremely embarrassing and I couldn't do anything without some kind of help.
I was suffering from stress as well because I wanted things done but they couldn't be done because of my situation.
I truly believe that if I this didn't happen I would have spiralled out of control. I got help and now things are slowly getting better. This is why I'm going to take Race-X slow instead of having a goal that I cannot achieve. A 2020 release date isn't happening so I am going to learn C++ to help support the development of this mod instead of sitting around and just writing because that's what I have been doing for 2 years.
I've done and said some really stupid things online and I apologize to anyone I have hurt or upset during my time on moddb. We all regret things we have done in our past.
Signing Off,
James
Mental Health & Accidents
Posted by Syph0 on
I always thought why you werent online so much, im just glad that youre in a better place now. I do hope it will only get better from here for you. Do be careful next time.
Do anything that you might enjoy if this is going to help you. Take care of yourself 🙏
omg man, sad to hear about that injury, i personally am happy that you didn't died, take your time recovering from it, may you walk good ways in life friend.
-Mateus
I hope you're doing well now, I was just visiting moddb and I've found a lot of memories and some of them are with you and your Race-X project. Thanks for the amazing memories, and I hope you're doing alright.