LeMis here, it's been a while and things have been pretty busy and whatnot, now I finally remembered I had to inform you guys what SoF's future is gonna be.
Well, I'll put it like this: It's not gonna be postive:
SoF is dead.
It took me a while to come to this conclusion, but it really can't be anything else. I haven't even touched Battlefield 2 itself in months, let alone modding it. I honestly can't remember most of it. Maybe I could regain most of my former skills by trying to freshen up, but I feel it's pointless to do so for something you're not actively interested in anymore.
My life has changed heavily over the course of the last 8-10 months. Let's put it like this, when I started SoF I was still pretty much a teenager, I was just beginning to find out hair doesn't grow exclusively on top of your head and I didn't really have much social experience whatsoever. I didn't really have any friends and couldn't be arsed to do homework as well so basically everything I did was play games and mod BF2. It wasn't until September 2013 where I first had some real friends. That's when my focus shifted to friends, social life and just having fun. SoF kinda ended up on the background and I really couldn't be bothered anymore to do anything for it.
I am now 18 years old, and my former fiery passion for modding and gaming in general has certainly doused quite a bit. I'm not even a gamer anymore. Rather, I have graduated from continuation school and I'm now an IT mechanic. I am also a metalhead now, music is basically 50% of my daily routine and I absolutely can't go without anymore. I just do much more things than simply gaming now, and have been doing so for quite a few months now, which basically caused my interesting for gaming/modding to drop to a historical low.
Coming to think of it, nah, I really can't be bothered to even try and mod anymore. It's just completely over in my brain, I guess I just don't live for the shit any more. I don't even play much video games apart from FIFA, GTA and Pokèmon (Yeah, say whatever you want) nowadays. Battlefield hasn't been of interest for me for a looong time.
I've had fun working on SoF, you guys have always been great and really helpful and even if I didn't really tell you guys I really appreciated it from you. Sure, SoF has had some accusations of copycat-ting and looking back at it now -as hard as I tried to defend it- this was all completely justified. I did have a serious lack of inspiration, and mainly Combat had to suffer from my gigantic lack of said inspiration. Combat is looking pretty swell nowadays and I think SoF could have never even equalled it at all, 7GamePL is still going strong and I like what he's doing, I hope he keeps up what he's doing and that he can make something truly special from his mod.
As for me? Well, SoF is really dead, I feel sad of it, I really do. But I just don't feel it anymore. I also don't think I'll ever mod again, because I just don't think it's worth the time at all. With the departure of RhysMCG from the modding scene at large (Is he even around these days?) SoF just took a major blow I couldn't compensate for myself. I've never really considered myself to be a good modder and thus I really wasn't/am not looking forward to try and keep it running all by my lonesome.
I just wanna say thanks again to all you guys, the support has been great and it has made this decision pretty damn hard. But in the end I think it just isn't worth it anymore. I'll probably check in on Moddb now and then when I come to think of it, but apart from that you guys won't be seeing me around a lot.
With that said, I depart...