Comments - jssjr90

Sorry for taking a long time to replay,

In the end, it was best for me to leave this project. Allot has happened since then, some good and some bad. In the good I am 90% done on my personal music project;

Summer Frostfall (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCblX5BkkueATOF8dizDNtUw?view_as=subscriber)

Just expressing what I feel musically is better than trying to make 277 people all happy. And I have grown allot in media design with Adobe Creative Cloud.

On a more sad note, not to mention allot, just recently one of my close family members has terminal health problems, when I know if I was doing this mod, that would effect allot of things.

I still have the original mod folder, in-case I decide to finish it, not for the watchers but for myself. I still like the atmosphere I have built, and with the increased music skills I have gained, I know the soundtrack would have been fantastic.

I still wonder where the story would have ended, that's something I still want to finish.

Mabye after my music project is fully complete, I might go back to this for old time sake, but no guarantee.

Cannot find the words to say how grateful it is to here this. I decided to stumble on this "abandoned" mod's page, to see if anything of new comments came up.

I guess for a small life update, things are very much better. Parents finally understand of who I choose to be, and not another them. That took a few tough storms to get through. Does this mean I might return and finish this project for once?

In my time of other hobbies and a major interest that flooded my life, Elsa and Anna, more so of ElsAnna and the amazing community I discovered, it truly helped my depression. As hard as it may believe, but when you face the world, the demands it gives to you, everything wanting to move fast, I actually thought about ending it all....

But I knew if I did that, more heart break would be caused from my own self destruction. And so, I took it upon myself to find happiness, and as strange as it may be, when you are faced with your own choice of death, anything is possible to cope with. I choose not of "real" drugs, although 6 doses of Benadryl did ease the tension from time to time.

In my moments of happiness, I found a story written by an Elsanna community member, the story was called Elsa's Year. The writer sadly, got burned out, only providing around 30 chapters, thus taking the story down for his personal means, as I did here... Luckily I have a backup of it, and many many other precious Elsanna stories. Anyways, upon my read, it felt like a good cliff hanger, in a good way. It truly dragged me into heart break, joy, and out of my depression. And very much influenced the music I adore to create.

I just naturally grew out of Amnesia: The Dark Decent modding. Shifting to Elsanna community. Quite a change yes, Horror to taboo hot romance, but in some ways, I think it was for the best.

I would be so mad at myself for not meeting goals on this mod, which was too much I lost count. And for me finding complete peace of Elsanna, I indulged in my music more and more, and now creating a personal score, that captures Elsanna of what it truly means to me musically.

I can finally create what I truly always wanted. Free from pressure, time, and other's demands. Music is universal, created from the elements of our natural universe. The universe, and it's elements has a finite number of years, but from that time span, music is practically infinite, just as the heavens seems to be.

I can say safely, and to let everyone know, that I got my happiness back, free from depression (as much it can humanly be). I am sorry that I could not finish this project, other projects have influenced me. Particularly my Elsanna Score music project, that I hope to sell and publish once finished.

It still lingers in my head, of the possibilities of what might be within The Hands Resist Him story. Maybe I might finish it one day. Not for fame, but to complete my art on the canvas. But for now, my canvas lies within music.

It is unfortunate to say but I have to cease development of this mod. Some voice actors lost interest, as I did as well. While my personal life is getting better, I eventually lost all interest in this mod.

And well... 5+ years is too long and I was always picky about stuff, and wanted to do better than before, which resulted in an endless loop.

But I would like to thank the people that did take interest in this project, I would like to thank my friends and voice actors that supported me though this development.

Other major interests have flooded my life, and well life goes on.

Thank you all for the suggestions and thoughts. #2 is I think the best one, despite being kind of cliche of a plot trigger for Henry, but hopefully I can create some deep undertones for Ellie. And not just in words of dialogue and notes, but also playing with the environment to tell the story as well.

Ultimately you are right. All this time I wanted to shoot big. For big visuals, epic story, epic music. But I know my own body and emotional state cant take that kind of pressure and work load in such a small amount of time.

I just have to learn to accept the fact that what I have so far is good enough honestly. I have wasted so much time in thinking and wishing for epic things when I know that I have not put in the effort to do so.

Its time to just accept reality. I'm sure this mod will be good enough for what it is. Im just going to stick with the story I have now and just roll with it. Weather this mod flops or is a big success, I will still be proud of what I have achieved. (Even though I am the biggest procrastinator ever when it come to doing stuff...) The regrets.

Its time to write.

My curtains are shut, my room is very dim, and the candles are glowing. Its time to write, its time to get close to finishing the story.

I am aiming for a December release (hopefully). And I can understand that the timing of this mod is very bad and I am alright with that. People who find interest in it will come by and play it, even if one person is amazed by the mod, then that makes me happy.

I will say though that allot of things that I wanted in the mod wont be featured. One being custom models to represent London, the time available to me to do that goal would take too long and too much of a learning curve.

And I know I should not mention real life stuff as it is not fully appropriate on here, but life for me is getting more complicated it seems as the weeks and months roll by. Lets just say that unfortunate family drama stuff happened, parents get mad, we argue, time to find my own place XD. So depending on what financial situation I am in the fall, this mod may or may not be released.

Lets get real here, the time I have spent at first on this mod was extremely high, to even avoiding school work just to do stuff. Then the line gradually goes down and down. I start to loose interest, and well its at a 30% out of 100% interest honestly. If I fail to finish the mod by the end of this year then I have failed myself and you guys.

I will say though that the story itself for the mod has evolved quite a bit. To basically being a Silent Hill rip off, to being something original.

Well all I can say is I hope I have enough energy to barley finish the mod. Im honestly just burned out by it. And I only made the trailer to pump me up and get back into the game, that did not last long.

If I cant reach my goal by December 31st, then I half to stop. Because at the end ill just be wasting my own time when I could be doing more important real life stuff honestly. I hope you can understand.

No. This was my original idea as I was thinking of a name for the manor, as it does sit by a lake.

Ironically I was so exited for Skyrim at launch, that I only played it for maybe 20 hours and that's it. If there is a house named "Lake View Manor" from Skyrim, then it was from my unknowing.

Thank you all for the awesome comments. This is what drives me to go further and further!

Thank you all very much for the kind and awesome comments!

In case anybody was wondering about the old comments that was previously here, I honestly had to re-upload this video to fix one tiny problem for the wallpaper at the end of the video. Thank you everyone who commented previously of the video!

Thank you BlasterLizard! Your words mean allot to me. There will be multiple subtitled languages now that you mention it.

Yes it sucks that Hidden never saw the light of day, I was looking forward to that mod.

As for the length of the mod, I can rest assure you that it will be a good length. Not too long and not too short. I am unsure currently on the predicted time to complete the mod, but I'm sure its a good length of play.

I relay wish I had allot more time these days though to relay get though with this mod to make serious progress, but everyday its just tiny snippets of progress honestly. With balancing of full time job, and school. But that's life.

There is still allot of work to do. The levels are almost all complete with maybe 7 more to freshly build and the rest with a full detail pass. I half to get back into the story to finish the writing, then there are the scripts to well get started with honestly, and the sound and music to compose as well, that in itself will take a few months too. As there will be over 60 full tracks. Ranging from classical to horror.

I realize I practically have a full game on my hands, and only one person to finish it.

New official trailer is up!

Thank you very much for liking the trailer!

Did I relay have that hint bar on??? Arhhh. lol. Im revising this.

Finally got around to transferring all of the mod's content over to the new PC.

So I deleted the latest news of basically my anxiety attack. (I was stressed about everything, the project, my novel, life, job.) lol. Thank you everyone for your support in putting me back into the reality of this project.

But everything is cool now. It was like some weird roller coaster. Anyways, I'll post some news of the changes I will half to make because of the novel decisions.

I am so desperately sorry everyone! Everyone is right, I am throwing away something great. My anxiety was just high and stressing about my novel, this project (and keeping everyone's expectations) and school and well unfortunately my job. I have messaged moddb about re-activation, hopefully it goes through.

Again VERY sorry about my mistake.

I am so desperately sorry everyone! Everyone is right, I am throwing away something great. My anxiety was just high and stressing about my novel, this project (and keeping everyone's expectations) and school and well unfortunately my job. I have messaged moddb about re-activation, hopefully it goes through.

Again VERY sorry about my mistake.

I am sorry everyone for this. Something today just snapped in my head to where I knew I could not finish it, even if I had all the time in the world. As I said before I am just burned out by it, for many reasons. I will probably not return on this project, nor return in modding. Yes I am throwing away potential but, with the time and effort it takes these days, my energy just cannot handle it any longer.

And I know I sound totally different in all of my comments from the past, I was only doing that to cheer myself up, to bring motivation to myself to finish this but, I was only lying to myself.

And it all starts to fall down... sigh... the news when authorized will explain everything. I am just too burned out of this project. I have honestly been burned out for at least 5 months of seeing this. I just cannot stand it any longer.

The hole on the right upper side is a roof collapse. I figured it would be more interesting to see a snippet of the outside world though natural deterioration of the castle.

Yes you are correct. My main focus was getting the atmosphere down first. I do need to add the small details to make it more "full".

Я сам не могу ждать, чтобы увидеть конечный результат этого проекта. Спасибо за поддержку!

(I myself cannot wait to see the end result of this project. Thank you for your support!)

Thank you!

I am glad I was not the only one. I thought I was. I am going to work on Henry and Julia flashback script lines though out the week, look at a different side of the story for once. Maybe its for the best, clear my brain with new creative thoughts.

I'm doing this for free, and I think "showing professionalism" is a little harsh. I'm not going to quit on this project, and I am sorry that you did not understand it seems.

I am only human, who has human emotions. I deeply felt that I should have let everyone know of how I felt about this project, so that's what I did.

But you are free to your opinion and I respect that.

Yep, it does cast shadows when toggled...and all this time...sigh

If you notice on the left, the wall is casting a shadow as it should. "I thought Amnesia could not cast shadows from primitive planes?" All of the walls in this scene are primitive planes. As some of us might know, they have a technical limitation. While it may have a "cast shadow" option to toggle, the wall will not cast shadows. How do I get around this?

I use Amnesia's technical static object "Plane Black". A 2 polygonal flat plane. I place it just so tiny behind the wall, that way the light will cast the shadow also on the Plane Black wall, creating the illusion that it is casting the shadows from the wall itself.

I will place Plane Black objects behind every single wall and corridor to give the players the maximum visual appeal.