I look on it I just want to cry, everytime I just wonder why I keep doing it I just instead of saying anything, I just feel like that I failed. I know I shouldn't suffer like that but that how It just went, its not my fault its a place where I would rather not be in.
It started likely simple, as a younger person in 2017-2018 I was doing silly mods for random fun and gigs, they weren't advanced mostly mapping work, I wasn't really experienced with game engines at all, my mods weren't meant do do anything bad, just laught at something like comedy skit or similar to parody B class movies.
But then it happened. I made something that wasn't meant to hurt anyone, and it did not. Unlike me, I my feeling and my sanity was ruined by someone who I thought I knew for years, just in one moment that no one really expected. I shall not call his Twitch or YouTube name but you shall know who it is.
My sanity went worsened over for a year and another, thought Its not purpose to live anymore like that. Just because of something I made, just random thing no one would care after a day or two, but no. That person managed to remind it over and over again.
Sorry for everyone that they think that I failed. I tried my best. Goodbye for another post. If I manage to survive to another post. There no hope. There no justice in this world. No one really cares about me, I am just like a pile of trash paper someone never managed to pick up and started rotting.
