Welcome to my Profile Page here on ModDB. I love games, I love almost any genre and I LOVE developing stuff. I guess you could consider me to be an old skool gamer, there's just so many games I have played and you know what? It's just awesome. Hope your stay is a good one and drop me a line or two I love interacting with the community. Live life to the fullest, follow your dreams and make damn sure you have them. ;)

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While working on my mod, I more then often think about life. One of the reason's I did this mod is to try and capture some of it's implications, but overall I want to expand on what life means to me, and hopefully other people aswell. When I think about life to me it means that I am gratefull for it, and all the things you can experience through it. Alive means animated, it's merely one of it's definitions. But what does it actually mean? I think that it's well known in higher circles that life goes hand in hand with knowledge, knowledge I like to divide into multiple aspects where context is essential in understanding very fundamental truths of certain knowledge about life. Knowledge also to me means wisdom. Wisdom can only be achieved by logic. True logic, very simplistic, but it usually runs very deep. That's where I think the danger lies. Going too deep more often then not results in false conclusions. The world we live in today is not helping anyone trying to figure out life, and what it means. That's where context comes in. There is no one meaning of life. Why are we here to me is not the point. What I can do here is muc hmore important. Asking questions is very important indeed, but asking questions like the meaning of life, is just too personal to give a standardised answer to. The meaning of life is what you find important in life. To me there are alot of meanings I could fill, considering the meaning of "life" Friendship is one, love and caring for others is another. But it's hard these days to actually create a true friendship since everyone's so easily tempted to create discussions where ego rules. Most people aren't capable of just saying, oh I was wrong, or shit I need to rethink my logics, because maybe I could be wrong. Being wrong in a conclusion these days is considered as a fault, but many forget that they themselves keep channging their own logics. I never have had much problems regarding to my personal beliefs. I always felt that mankind has been kept in a prison all through the ages in one way or another. Whereas before in days gone by, people knew the bars where there in the form of a landlord a king, or whatever kind of ruling entity embodied the so called prison. I believe that today this prison is in the form of what the mind percieves. or in this case, doesn't percieve. It's quite the statement to say that we all are slaves in this modern world, in the societies we live in today. But who of you, who actually reads this blog, can say I am free. being able to walk outside is just one form of freedoms we have, although I know this is to be changed in the future. It's about context. at one point people have drawn lines on maps claiming that land is made up of people x, with a x society, and it's x beliefs. Who of you can think of the idea that the thoughts and minds of milions of people could be steered? I bet that when you read this, you'll say to yourself, this guy's way ou tof there. But am I truly? Just look at schools these days. Let's look at history for instance. Who do you think writes history? Exactly it's the ones who've conquored in the past. The "winners" wrote our history (his story) We always believe that it's a certain person very high up there that reigns absolute, like let's say ex persident Bush has. Well I can tell you one thing I learned is that never one person makes up the idea in a whole on his or her own. Even if the conclusion and the compilation of the thoughts to arive at a certain conclusion comes from one person, the path leading up to it always has been through the past ideas, thoughts, and words from others before them, or their peer group. Creating society has been planned atleast from the time of plato and onwards, although I believe it is to be much older then that. Steering humanity through play's which are now the movies we watch, even the news now. programs us to percieve the world in certain ways. So what is the purpose to life, well, again to me the context in which im trying to put this is that everyone in my eyes deserves a chance to make up what is important to them. But that is a bit blunt to just believe that, I will never say this to ooooh, let's say the ones at the top, the so called elite. Why wouldn;t I do that? because they are so paranoid that they really am scared to death about all the masses of people in this world, which they try to rob from life itself. I cannot condome that fact. I know for a great deal how this world runs, and I can't just say that I wish them all the best in life, simply because they already made up their mind to not be so kind towards me. I just can't ignore that fact. This life as I see it has a duality of somany things. One is materialism and the other being spiritualism. Both in my eyes can be wonderfull things. I love a good looking game, but I equally love a game with something more to offer, something of the mind. I remember playing metal gear solid on my gamecube. Although it wasn't the first game that had a certain emotional effect on me. Mystic Quest on the gameboy was my first experience where I actually felt sad after going throug hsome parts of the game, it was one that had alot of depth. Half Life 2 had a similair effect on me. That's what I am trying to do in my mod aswell. Why life is so important, atleast to me, is because we only have one chance in life, to live it right here right now, with the people we know.
which brings me to my final thought. How muc hI love games, I hate where technology is heading. I will never get a chip because I simply ain't an I M PLANT. So i say screw you Con's piracy, I am my own being, I think for myself so therefore I am ALIVE, animated and well, atleast for the time being. And to any who is still here at the bottom of this blog page, live life in the context of understanding the importance of it, of your life, and others. Eventhough you have arguments know that most people in the end want what you want. A life worth fighting for ... Let that be one of the aspects why Gordon fights the combine, and why John from 1187 fights for his... You should fight for your believes in the real world, because we only get somany chances to say I love you to those who actually deserve it....

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