I am a writer trying to get into the gaming business. I would like to write as well as give creative direction for a game or mod. I used to play those old Classics MUDs and even admin for one doing building, making mobs and areas for a while. I have been breaking into 3d modelling and animation working with a couple programs over the past couple of months. I did sculpture for several years in highschool working with shapes and geometry so modelling came very easily using a simple program called Anim8or. After of which I took it a step further and applied myself to learning maya more and that is the stage I am currently at. I have also written and published two titles "where the angels lost their way" and 'the gift of sin." I'm going to practice and post up my models or 3d graphics images from time to time please let me know if you would like to download any models or basis models for images.
Ok I wanted to write a post about...soemthing with data...I think I was gonan call it brainwaves VS. Airwaves or some shit....like how much cell data usage goes on at once with some fancy equation to thoughts....but I really got caught up and bored reading people's bitchy ass comments about why pay for data I can make phone calls durr......clearly these phones are not for you...they're not for most of us honestly. No one really needs all the shit they put in there but they're basically trying to out compete eachother and who wins? we do.....well with the phones at least. The plans and such well we kinda lose on that. I don't really remember too much more than that...holy shit I need to sleep more. In any case I have come to the conclusion that....fedex lost my #$^@#(*^ package...thus all the phone cell data talk they lost a cell phone I ordered. It was a blah blah blah but since they lost it they owe me $$$ and with that $$$ I will buy either a new blah blah blah or the blah di blah blah....I haven't decided. $((#*&#(!!! I want my damn phone!
Other people are nightmares.....not all of the time but yea they can be. No you can't do a or b but you must do c. but I can't do c because I don't have a or b? find a way do it anyways it's not my fault. uhm....we don't know where a is.... what do you MEAN you don't know where A is??? how the hell do you lose A? well it should be here today at some point. WTFBBQ $*&%&*(# shut up! We can't send information about b through c anymore....it's not allowed...oh goddamnit how the hell am I supposed to do it when I don't freaking have A! bother him about it....jeebus %*&&#*((( crykie.....this is the story of my life.
I really can't wait until November because I will be participating in NaNoWriMo or National Novel Writing Month. Basically you write a novel draft in a month. You can write an outline and and plan out the story but can't write until November. I already have my idea of what I am writing and I got the idea from seeing a statue of a scarecrow smiling with a crow on his arm. So i'm going to write a novel about a scarecrow! It's not going to be boring because scarecrows don't do anything but it will be intriguing and I have been told from those who have read the outline that it's pretty unique. I can't wait to put it on paper and then struggle to get it published. With that being said, in November I prolly won't do any Game making anything unless I get pissed off writing.
Information in the form of energy
Streams in simultaneously
Through all of our sensory systems
And then it explodes into this enormous collage
Of what this present moment looks like
What it feels like
And what it sounds like
And then it explodes into this enormous collage
And in this moment we are perfect
We are whole and we are beautiful
Don't you hate it when you're waiting for a package and then you track it only to realize that the $%^%#&&# that was supposed to deliver it said he went to your house and you weren't home. I was home you didn't ring the goddamn $&^%^&# doorbell! there was no letter stating that you had visited, not even a "hey we came by sorry we missed you heres a pink slip to pick up your package." nothing! &%^$^*&%*%$ motha $&^%*#(#*$& HOE! so I calls them like hey what happened to my package and they're only open tuesday through saturday so like....Grarghlglglhle I can't even drive to get the damn package myself if I wanted to today! I told the nice lady on the phone I want the package delivered, I want my door bell rang and I will leave a note on the goddamn front door to ring the %^&$^&*$^ doorbell or so help me....it's bullshit!
Ok Ima steal some Sagan real quick, flip the script so watch it switch.
"One of the great revelations of self exploration is the image of your soul finite and lonely, bearing your entire human existence through the oceans of space and time." I didn't have to re-write it, just felt right and closer. Lot's of Symphony of Science
so i've been working on a deck to play in friday night magic this week and i've come up with the double jace salsa deck. Basically it's baby jace and m12 jace with some black sun zeniths, unblockables, traumatizes, counterspell and spot removal with some tomb scours here and there. So the deck sucks right now but I'll try to get the right cards later on. Last week I made my standard legal green and black mana ramp rape face deck. It worked out pretty well I won 3 lost 1 in a four round event. wasn't too shabby, turn 4 primeval titan or wurmcoil engine or even massacre wurm to get rid of the weenies. doom blades and go for the throat put in some work but creeping corrosion as a sideboard was a game changer. white artifact decks with their memnites, mox opals and signal pests....turn 3 attack 18? turn 3 creeping corrosion? turn 4 wurmcoil? yea....you know the deal. Mill out your face with the doubel jace salsa!! hopefully when I get it actually running it will do well..oh yea last week I won a pack and got that m12 jace....bought a 2 dollar 6 random card pack and got m12 gideon as well...I want the new sorin it's always good to have extras. oh yea I forgot....sorin's vengeance for at least 3 wins! uhm sorin you're at 10 now take 10.....game.
I uhm hrmmm.....I want to run my own shop but right now I do lots of tech support. and I know that to make enough money to build my game on my own is impossible within a reasonable timeframe unless I start selling drugs and such of which case my timeframe is shortened even more by the sentencing. In any case the best thing to do is BUDGET BUDGET BUDGET and then don't break that budget. And I'm not referring to just budgetting your money, budget your time, people resources and the lot. I'm a person that wants to see progress after the end of every day and that's a basd habit I need to break because in this type of industry progress probably shouldn't be measured that way. it takes days weeks or even months to hit any type of milestone. I know I haven't yet but i'm still working towards it. I mean...there has been a lot of work done, or so i'm told but from the cosmic perspective of entire game completion....it's a blip...
I.......am...excited about innistrad! woot go MTG. I was lucky enough to have the M12 promo release event on my birthday so I played in that tourney and went 3-1 so I was happy as shiiiiit. now innistrad spoilers have come out and I'm excited yet baffled about the new Garruk. they just released the Garruk primal hunter in m12 which I was fortunate enough to crack that promo weekend, but now they have a transform mechanic with a garruk transform planeswalker. yes confusing but the dude makes death touch wolves for fun that's awesome. I did trade my $30 garruk for Nicol Bolas Planeswalker to put into a deck, then I turned it into a brutal EDH deck, now called commander. Sedris the traitor king as general kicks azzes. I just played a game...quick rundown...milled 20 every turn but with sedris out that was fuel for the cause because now 7-8 mana cards cost 3 swing and die. Perfect! so basically that's how it went oh I milled a shit ton of creatures that i'm going to beat your face with next turn thank you......
I can be a very difficult person to work with. my ideas are complicated sometimes and difficult to explain, my mind is spread all over the place and I try too much. I work all over the place and get nowhere fast. At least that's what used to be me in a sense. my ideas are still complicated enough but after failing several times to do what I set out to do, and failing very early I might add, I find it difficult to place trust in myself from my past mistakes let alone have someone else trust me. I would say until recently I have been a failure and flake. However, time after time I have always come back..I have an idea for a game. This time I will do it right and succeed. I'm not asking for everyone to follow me or even pay attention that much. I'm taking things step by step not skipping around anymore.
My first idea was a game incredibly long, epic and full of awesome shit that would rock the game world....but I couldn't do anything fo FAIL!
My second idea was good, simple enough and straight forward but I didn't know what I was doing to begin with, FAIL!
My third and fourth well....not simple first off, and I tried too much with too little....all at the same time....EPIC FAIL!
Now my fifth attempt.....after a couple years of trying, knowing the process more and reading a lot more, research, idea shopping, idea smashing, realistic goal analysis and steady contemplation I think I've finally got something I can finish properly and if not properly I can finish the damn thing.
Like a friend of mine used to say "Dreams are for suckers, you have to set goals."
There are things in this world that wea re born with and there are things that we must learn. I was born with the ability to tell a story. I had to learn how to tell that story well. I was born with an open mind but I have to learn to have patience. I get overly excited and I want to see results immediately and that's not what this business is about. Arts and creation takes time and to teach myself this I must first use it. Today I am making a scene that will take some time to create and some time to render and I will wait for it to finish before I even look at it. I do not want to exert un needed pressure on artists including myself to perform to my whimsy. Patience is indeed a key to perfection. i've lost that but I shall regain it.
Special edit.....I fucked up on the render hahah just goes to show you right? I'm still gonna post that shit.
double special edit...I added the pic with some stuff to the webpage if you go to the games section
Wix.com I hope that link works