Postgrad electronic engineer at ESL, Stellenbosch university | Sci- fi fan with Star Wars and Mass Effect as my fav | Tactical FPS gamer | Dragon enthusiast | Wannabe concept artist | Moddb Star Wars RP history: Retired renowned scarred Jedi-Grand Master Fleet General (Try saying that 5 times fast!), having served in the the Army of Light and Galactic Alliance. Currently on vacation on Tython. Realization: The ideal follower is often the perfect leader. My signature: Rules are for those who can't help being arrogant.

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Who still reads these things anyway? But for those that still care and just for myself to kinda reflect, here is a long time coming blog update.


Graduation. I've officially graduated as an electronic engineer on Wednesday. That means, yup you've guessed it, I'm now officially unemployed! I don't feel much different, yet it feels amazing that I graduated with all my close friends.


Because of the work I've done with my final year project and my general performance during my studies, I've been accepted for a scholarship for my master's degree at my university, spanning two years. I'll be working with world acclaimed professors in their field, working in cutting edge projects for companies such as Airbus, that focus on control systems for autonomous vehicles. I'm rather exited for next year.


So I suppose you can say my hard work has payed off and I'm well on my way. But as with all things in life, it came at a price. The obvious one given away by my lack of blog updates. After a train wreck of a Christmas vacation last year, with me being down for the count and burned out due to stress, I went into this year without much energy. My mental health came into question due to my breakdown. After several appointments, I was given anti-depressants and diagnosed with social anxiety. Not so surprising on the latter really. The anti-depressants is there with the hopes of getting me through my final year of my studies. With my close friends whom I study with carrying me through most of the year, and my medication, I at least coped. The final semester it was all about our final year project. Friends couldn’t help you with that. Luckily I had a great professor to help me and in the end it all worked out.

With my mental condition being diagnosed, I’ve started with phycologist sessions to try and undue the negative mental patterns I’ve cemented in my brain over the years. I think it’s helping. It’s good to have someone else’s perspective that is not part of your echo chamber and family culture.

One apparent thing is just the sacrifice a person must make for higher education. The average person seems to say engineers are these anti-social, arrogant people, or the same of pretty much any highly educated individual. The fact is this is the impression people get because they do not understand the sacrifice these educated individuals had to make to get where they are. Financial, mental and social sacrifices. We can’t explain these sacrifices, because the average person does not have the scope to understand them and thus reverts to calling us entitled and arrogant. So both parties end up sour for one another. We can’t talk about average things with average people, because we never had the time to experience them during studies, and thus our youth. People think we are workaholics, because that’s all we talk about. But people can only make friends with those that share their interests, and for us those are down to people in our field. Also working academically for years on end breeds a certain mental condition. Why are we so systematic, and critical about everything? Why can’t we just enjoy things for what they are? Why aren’t we more impulsive? It’s because these traits just cause trouble in academics and research. If you are busy with academics 80% of your day, you can’t just switch off that mental condition for the other 20% if your day, or the weekend even. This is why you will hear people say to do your post grad studies as soon as you’re done with pregrad. Because if you go work in the field, you lose your critical mindset and transitioning back to it for post grad studies makes it even more difficult. So, in a sense I look forward to regaining a more relaxed mental attitude once I go work in the field, but until then, I’ve accepted my fate. Don’t get me wrong though, working at the edge of human technology during post grad has its own rewards.


I can’t have a life update without talking about gaming. So the first half of this year was pretty dry, with my friends and I doing the Dota 2 thing. It wasn’t as great as we hoped, and with the Reborn update it all went to hell. With constant updates and a toxic community, we just left that game for good. I also had my run with Eve online, made quite a bit and rather quickly for a new player, but with studies it could not go much further.

The second half of this year, I got Killing Floor 2. I’m glad I did because it turned out to be perfect for keeping me going and scratching my trigger finger. At the moment it is still my go to game, with Ark survival evolved with my one friend supplementing it. The FPS scene for PC is still very much in crisis mode. With Battlefront not having dedicated servers being a huge issue and Rainbow six Siege not being all that much.


In other news, South Africa is kinda dissolving into chaos around me, a slippery slope of corruption and protests. Riots at university, the natives being restless. The economy is at the brink of collapse due to the people in government being apes. I couldn’t have gotten my degree any sooner. And hopefully after my masters I can get a job overseas, although that plan does look promising hearing of the connections we have from this faculty.


This blog doesn’t do the intensity of my year much justice but there it is. I’m still in a relationship and going strong, which naturally helps. But it is a long distance relationship and that does have an emotional toll on me. But it will be worth it I know it. The internet is a weird thing and is changing how our generation interacts. For better or worse, only us lot be able to say one day. The wheel of life weaves forward.


Sab3rr out! o7

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Headhunter128
Headhunter128

Just so that the debate can contiue :P

Owner: Okay.. Now, sit!
Cat: Noo.. You sit!

"Dogs=Hard workers who work for treats, loyal and also much more useful than a cat" - There is a word for that.. Slavery.

Cats are true friends, they never leave you when leaving the door open and if they do... They get run over at some point xD

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Ten10dix
Ten10dix

Erm, Cats around France ALWAYS leave and ONLY come back to be fed, whilst doing nothing to earn that.

If your going to reason like that, then we are all slaves xD. We all work for "treats", food and stuff xD.

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Sab3rr Creator
Sab3rr

Cats have more independent thought. The go out to do things they like, like prowl. Then come back when they are hungry. they know their owners love them and will show love back...just on their own accord(MORE INTELLIGENT)

dogs irritate me cause they cant do a thing without you, they are always around...that dumb...you value cats more, cause they you are more grateful for their love...

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Ten10dix
Ten10dix

Cats=Cookies

Dogs=Bacon

AND WE ALL KNOW WHICH IS BETTER!!! xD

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Sab3rr Creator
Sab3rr

funny thing is I will take the cookie instead of the bacon...I'm more of a sweet tooth, so ya <_<

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Headhunter128
Headhunter128

Lies! I'm no slave!

*Notices That I have to get to work*

Uhmm.. Be right back! :P

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Ten10dix
Ten10dix

WAIT!!! I`VE FOUND IT!!!

Cats<Dogs CAUSE DOGS CAN LEARN STUFF!!!

Tell a Cat to sit, it looks at you with a face that says "wtf?", but a Dog just sits. This means Dogs, although less independant (though more loyal xD) are WAY more intelligent than cats CUSE DOGS LEARN STUFF!!!

PWNED!!! xD.

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Sab3rr Creator
Sab3rr

nuhu...cats can learn stuff too, they are just too lazy, and couldn't give a damn. Our cat can play fetch...oh yeah...Dogs have almost no independent thought, they just do what they are told, BORING!
Cats' communication is just on a different level than dogs. the debate continues!

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Ten10dix
Ten10dix

Cats=Lazy damned things that expect us to give them treats for doing nothing (like idiots whine about not having any luck when they don`t do anything to get anything in return).

Dogs=Hard workers who work for treats, loyal and also much more useful than a cat (when a theif comes into a house and sees a cat, he kicks it or something. When he sees a big black dog barking at him, he runs xD).

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Obi-1-Kenobi
Obi-1-Kenobi

hmmm cats huh?
my dad runs one over whenever he gets the chance lol...

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Sab3rr Creator
Sab3rr

0_o
Your dead to me...
jk
Dogs can kiss my a** <_<
Cats proven to be more intelligent, and have a bigger variety of unique personalities.
hehe...not trying to sound serious, just some ppl are cat people, and some are dog people(shame) =P

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Ten10dix
Ten10dix

Intelligent cats?

Mister Cat: Hi, Master! I`mah brining you a deadz mouse into da house as a present!!! Woot!

Mister Dog: Play with mah! Play with mah! WOOF WOOF!!!

Mister Fish: I`mah dizzy from going round and round mah bowl all dayz... Ugh...

All in all, your better of with a guinea pig xD.

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Sab3rr Creator
Sab3rr

lol, your pathetic. xD jk
Now heres a comparison:
Dog: "wow these ppl feed me, protects me and always loves me no matter what. They must be God"
Cat:"wow these ppl feed me, protects me and always loves me no matter what. I must be God!"
haha

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Ten10dix
Ten10dix

So all in all: Dogs are much smarter than cats, cause when I was younger I was looked after by my parents, and did not consider myself God xD, but rather considered my parents "invincible". Dogs=Smart Fools. Cats=Stupidly smart.

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Sab3rr Creator
Sab3rr

Almost, cats are epically smart, cause they realized why should they beg and, well do anything really, if they get what they want anyway =P
You do not own a cat, a cat owns you. They really are smart, cause they are selfish. I think that is a good indication of how smart they are if you look at us humans hehe

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Ten10dix
Ten10dix

YOUR ARGUEMENT HAS BEEN INVALIDATD FOR THE FOLLOWING REASON(S):

I can`t think of anything else to say xD.

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Sab3rr Creator
Sab3rr

awwww, was hoping this this debate would spam my profile and give me lotso activity points =P
lol and this was all started by Obi hehe

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