Basically I've been designing games my whole life and will continue to do so until the day I die. It would be super-keen if I could actually get paid moneys for that, and I hear some people do, so that's my life dream. I've failed miserably at art, programming, and modeling (incl. level creation), repeatedly, and am pretty sure I will never be very good at any of them. This makes my dream pretty effing hard to pursue. Right now I'm hedging my bets between building a CV of basically nothing (since most mod teams can't wrap their heads around a designer not in a team lead role), and wishing every night for the magic job faerie to sprinkle credibility dust on me as I sleep. OK, I can script really well. And I've snagged a position in Modular Combat. But "game design" is very difficult to demonstrate in a portfolio, especially since most of my work is in mods of copyrighted games. Well, I'm not giving up, so here's hoping.