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5 years is a lot of time and since then I can't even begin to say how different things and my interests are now. Basically 180 degree turn in short. Same applies for the ,,mods,, .
Damn good video, and highly entertaining :) .
Could be the link someone was talking about after the original leak. The person said it was still available ,,somewhere,,.
Love the fact that you constantly update your profile :) .
But the previous avatar, with Ed, was better ;)
Hm, that water looks different, running on Steam, and the alpha HUD. So it did make it into the mod after all :)
Keep up the good work.
Surely not :)
But what are that NPCs??
The truest HL1 beta you'll ever see in the most beta look & feel ;)
Just finished the mod once again, and it's just great to see it's still running flawlessly after the SteamPipe update. It was a great bugless experience for me.
Most likely neither, because the content inside that leak no longer reflects the current one, based on what the devs said, so it's irrelevant at this point.
AvP1 was pretty good, loved it as well. AvP2 on the other hand, was garbage imo, if it wasn't for the increased amount of gore. Otherwise still bad and boring.
,,The Satanic Warmaster, and Infernal Archduke of Hell,,.
Love SW too, they're great.
Well, in the case of the beta mods, most context was already existing and not created by me, only slightly altered. So yes, and no need to credit me.
Dat door tho.
Gotta send it again though, I deleted it last night.
Yeah, damn shame if you removed it. Atlantis is one of my favorite curiosities.
I too believe that there was a much more advanced race before us, likely to not be human.
That's a very good point. Lots of people today believe that the technological progress started in recent times, but that obviously isn't true, especially if these things are indeed real.
Also, remember Atlantida? (I think that was it). They were so advanced that they destroyed themselves. Still, that's proof they existed at some point and were not as ,,ancient,, , taking into consideration their times.
I think the ancients were a lot smarter than we though. Hoax? Possible, but I'm not so sure.
Merci, dar asta a fost acum relativ mult timp (cel putin pt. mine). Nu am mai pus mana pe nimic din domeniul asta de multa vreme si mi-am cam pierdut interesul cu timpul.
No I'm not. I'm just a sort of ,,grammar nazi,, .
Good, it was getting strange lately, thought at some point you were doing in deliberately.
Also yeah, fear of gods, or their wrathful side.
Btw, the last two gods remind me of Quetzalcoatl, due to the similarities in their name: En.wikipedia.org
Um... No. I'relaxed, and I'm smiling so much for that reason actually.
And indeed, you have little knowledge when it comes to this religion. It's not for simply empowering one's self, but a path of becoming (more than you are), in a quest for knowledge and wisdom, which of course already includes what you have mentioned in your interests. ,,Becoming as gods,, to put it very simple for that matter. It has many things to offer, just don't jump to conclusions.
Speaking about this, I think we should actually stop talking about satanism. Don't misunderstand, but at least for me, it's obvious that when it comes to it, we are speaking in tongues (,,The Devil speaks in tongues,, - Mortem, death metal from Peru haha), and since we have very different belief systems... yeah.
And no, I already told you something. Satanism and christianity are 2 different things, that's one of the most common misconceptions these days. Yes, you have a perspective there, but that's it. It definitely isn't ,,the way,, lol. Maybe the christian way.
I'll tell you if you really want to know.
Well yes, LHP has many secrets, and secrecy is one of the rules :), same with occultism.
As about demons and devils, it does seem that you are heavily influenced by christianity. We pretty much have totally different beliefs, and that's always great. Even with the idea of the soul. That's just christian propaganda. There is, in fact, the so called ,,pact with the Devil,, (and demons), however it couldn't be more different from christian theism than you imagine. A lot of satanists (and demonolators for that matter) do it after they stay interested in it for at least a couple of years. The pact (or the commitment) has many different purposes than what you think. One such example would be conquering one's inhibitions, or a confirmation for dedicating the rest of their life to the path. It's not the end of the world if one falters latter, but it's best not to. Satan in general is much more lenient when it comes to this, but other demons aren't. Some actually experienced quite some misfortune afterwards. That's because, just like anyone, they don't like to be used to attract beneficial things and then leave/turn against them.
There's more to this anyway. Just realized that I could've written an article about this AND many other matters, but instead I'm writing long novels in the comments section about them :)).
And no, I'm very relaxed while typing actually, but I am obviously defending my beliefs when it's necessary :).
And of course once you build your own theology it will shape your worldview as well, but that's not a problem (or probably you didn't mean exactly this, idk). Not in my vision anyway, same with conscience, although not in the sense I think you meant (same thing).
And I know I didn't reveal my age, that will also remain private too. Either way, always nice to talk with someone who's actually listening :).
Nah, we won't fight don't worry ;)
Agreed very much.
Regarding possessions, well no, I didn't deny the existence of spirits that can possess someone at all, neither did I with exorcism. I was simply saying that just because someone presents such symptoms doesn't necessarily indicate he's possessed, but instead insane and unaware of his condition.
Also, such entities can be what it's called ,,masquerading,, spirits, which means pretty much what you think: Spirits that pose as something they are not. For instance, if someone is possessed by a Belial that doesn't mean it's the real one in any way, especially if it behaves in a way that's not characteristic to him at all. I wasn't just saying this for the sake of denying everything because ,,it's Satan's way,, (which btw isn't true. Being a reverse sheep isn't any different than being a regular one, in fact, it can be quite the opposite, depending on the situation). I'm not trying to invalidate some things just because of some sort of absurd reason, but just trying to say that, like you mentioned yourself, there are many things we don't understand, thus a narrow minded perspective is of no use. We may never really know what lies in the spirit world either, and we surely won't in our current state by any means. But we shouldn't jump too far to conclusions either just because of some teachings. That's not to say that demons are incapable of possessions, they may very well be, but to actually happen that, well, it can only be a much, much lesser deity than what it claims it is. Likewise, assuming that ALL demons are ,,ethically nice guys/evil spirits,, doesn't hold much truth either.
For this matter, this also applies to sacrifices (it just came up to my mind). If a spirit actually DEMANDS offerings, attention, worship, ,,gets ******/angry,, and anything of sorts, then it is by no means an actual great god, but a much lesser spirit and not the one the person intends to contact. These are indeed signs of weakness.
And absolutely correct, simply denying something because you ,,don't like/accept it,, doesn't make any sense. Just because one denies something doesn't make it any more unreal. That's indeed an illusion, and a dumb one. Man has always denied things for various reasons after all.
And no, I didn't mean to go that far. I'm not saying that religion is useless/worthless and does ONLY harm (that's ridiculous obviously), but judging after these times, well, that's what some of them do actually in a way or another, since they are misused. It did, and still does, offer some help and satisfies many needs of different people. Assuming it's pure garbage because ,,it does this and only this,, is of course idiotic. And needless to say that forcing someone to accept/deny something doesn't do any good, because they will believe whatever they want anyway.
I too wonder how would the world look if there was no science and only magic. For some reason this sends me in medieval fantasy, damn that would be badass :).
Woah, take it easy dude, I'm not out there to spread anti-christian propaganda, I was just sharing my thoughts. What one accepts or doesn't is entirely up to him. Going the ,,this is better, truer, beneficial,, etc. way is obviously something dumb, because this is nothing more than forcing your convictions upon others, regardless of the reasons.
if you disagree with me, then that's perfectly fine, but as far as I'm concerned, we seem to hold very, very different beliefs and ideas, so I think it's best to just leave it there how it is.
Yeah, sorry for sounding a little strange with ,,THAT old,, thingy :)) .
Talking about truth in religion, I believe that all religions have a grain of truth in them, but none of them has everything. Entirely subscribing to a belief system doesn't give anything more than an illusion of certainty.
I do consider that the christian god however is in no way the ,,the truth, the way,, and so on, and neither is christianity. Just look at the way it influences people. I'm yet to see a christian who is not ,,religiously,, retarded to be honest (by that I mean christians that DON'T believe that their religion is the only true one and everyone must adhere to it). I've seen way to many christians that say this, but in reality they believe the opposite.
And coming back to their god, I find it as absolutely hypocritical to claim that they worship an all-good god. I mean, do these people read their damned books? it really is true what they say... they call themselves christians but never actually read their stuff nor searched about the history of their religion and how it affected the world in the course of time. But surprisingly, a non-christian knows far more. How embarrassing for them. Or ignorant, since they deny anything negative about their fluffy stuff. I think most of them will be shocked if they read their books, just to see what kind of god they believe in (check the Old Testament for that). By all standards, their god is not what he claims.
However, it isn't really correct to assume that there's only one such god. There are christians that aren't narrow minded too, but I just hope there would be more like these. There's no 1-1 correspondence between names, so there may very well be more ,,Christs,, (to say so). The one of liberal christians is far more likeable than the one of fundamentalists.
And no, I'm not offended by not liking my god and my religion :). Very far from it, that's entirely up to you, not my business. Everyone has its own ideas about everything, and I respect that. Beside, that's the way things must be. What would happen if EVERYBODY would think EXACTLY the same way? How boring would that be...
Yes, of course there are prayers to Satan, but of course, that depends on what one desires to achieve from it. I think it's pretty much self explanatory that one shouldn't expect to be handed the thing on a silver plate, regardless of their beliefs. You want it, then do something about it. And if prayer, rituals, etc. don't do anything about it, then probably you aren't supposed to get that things. Or should work harder to obtain them, like I already said.
I too don't believe so much in coincidences. It all depends on cause and effect and our actions. Nothing pops up outta nowhere for literally no reason. However, yes, it is a rather complicated topic, so we should leave it how it is for the time being.
Talking about insanity, yes, some priests do believe that mental illnesses are caused by demons. How ridiculous and non sensical is that... not even going to bother. This reaches the point of absurdity.
Speaking about this, it is in fact possible to drive yourself insane through LHP religions if you have no idea in what you're getting involved or just jump straight into the middle of the pool. And of course, this doesn't have anything to do with alleged possessions. Actually I'm seeing this like a hidden psychosis. There are some things or events that can trigger it, and be pretty reminescent of possessions. Either way, we should admit that we know very little about spiritual matters like this, so there isn't really an 100% explanation.
And regarding absolute truth, I already mentioned this. Wish more people would accept this, but I guess they love living in an illusion. Gives them confidence and power apparently.
And most religions could really be used to do something grand, but since they're so misused these days... Just like I said a couple of days ago, the curse of existence. I really wonder how this world would look if there was no religion at all, but instead philosophy or something similar.
And, another really long reply wow :D .
There's quite a common mistake I'm seeing lately. It's ,,deities,, not ,,dieties,, ;)
I'd tell you my age, but not here obviously. And damn, didn't expect that you're THAT old for some reason.
I pretty much agree with everything you said, so not much else to say this time. With one exception: Yes, of course one can deny the christian god and believe in the Other Guy. Satanism is much more than what is called ,,reverse christianity,, (satanism based on christian theology. The more one subscribes to it, the more it turns into reverse christianity). This is not to say, however, that satanism isn't based on some parts of christian theology at all. The very character of Satan is based on that, with differences and reinterpretations, for instance. But as far as it goes, saying that one depends on each other is pretty much a mistake. There are some common elements though, like I already said.
I should also mention that there's also pandeistic satanism and forms of satanism that see Satan as the creator of the universe, the All. This way, one couldn't care less about christian theology.
Satanism, as is, is an umbrella term that hides many different practices, beliefs and perspectives. There's no such thing as ,,the only way,, here, or dogmatism.
You can also check the anti-cosmic variant, which teaches metaphysics very different from that of christianity. It would seem that (don't take it personally, just mentioning it :) )you are too unfamiliar with satanism overall, thus you're also having some misconceptions about it. Anyway, let's get going.
Yes, of course, simply denying that something doesn't exist because one doesn't like something is not right, stupid, and pretty much an invalid and illogical argument, obviously. Although it seems I didn't make myself clear enough.
I wasn't saying that I don't admit its existence of fate simply because I despise it. I just said that I'm not really finding its existence that plausible because the world we live in is very unpredictable, and was simply pointing out that if it turns to be real, then **** happens, but still hate the idea anyway.
Speaking about that, in a religious context, fate would pretty much render a couple of things obsolette, thought I should mention this because there's something interesting. Prayer for instance. What's the point in praying for whatever one wants if it's not going to do ****?
And lastly, spiritual experiences. Indeed, science, especially as we currently know it, is very unlikely to ever be able to explain spiritual matters. But still, that doesn't mean that some so called experienced (like the real example I mentioned previously) are caused by one's imagination or mental issues. That case definitely wasn't an experience and it's quite an absurdity to believe otherwise. Not saying that my point is the only valid one, rather, that it wouldn't make much sense to believe otherwise.
And that's absolutely correct. Anything religious should be taken slowly, bit by bit, not by jumping straight in the middle of the pool and make an idiot out of yourself through aberrations and idiocy.
I actually don't believe the christian god is real at all. I mean, let's face it: At least in my country, 99% of them never had any spiritual experiences and yet they still call themselves christians, despite the lack of a previous experience of any sort.
It fact let me tell you something stupid, to realize just how naive are christians (and it's real): An aquaintance of one of my friends says that he had an experience. The experience: Jesus appeared to him in a train telling him that if he doesn't bow down to him he'll be tormented for eternity.
I mean, seriously now, to actually have such an ,,spiritual experience,, and believed, you'd have to be batshit insane (or naive, like I already said). That guy was an atheist until that point, then he instantly converted. What the f... ????
Needless to say that if I'd have such an ,,experience,, I'd to the next day to a doctor to check if I have any kind of mental illness, but, christians being christians, of course they take it for granted.
And regarding the prayers, well just because something one prayed about actually happened doesn't necessarily mean that someone answered the prayer. We live in a chaotic and unpredictable universe, and unexpected things happen all the time. Luck doesn't equate with the existence of a particular deity.
Talking about this, it actually reminds me of those who believe in fate. Given what I previously said, I reject this notion for being highly unrealistic. But also because I hate the simple thought of not having control over my own life. It makes me feel worthless, knowing that whatever I do, it won't change anything at all.
And finally, pandeism. Well, yes, I don't really find that one very realistic either, but it is a perspective nonetheless. Pandeism makes most sense to me in the end though.